The Clockwork Penguin

Daniel Binns is a media theorist and filmmaker tinkering with the weird edges of technology, storytelling, and screen culture. He is the author of Material Media-Making in the Digital Age and currently writes about posthuman poetics, glitchy machines, and speculative media worlds.

Tag: anxiety

  • Why can’t you just THINK?!

    Image generated by Leonardo.Ai, 20 May 2025; prompt by me.

    “Just use your imagination” / “Try thinking like a normal person”

    There is this wonderful reactionary nonsense flying around that making use of generative AI is an excuse, that it’s a cop-out, that it’s dumbing down society, that it’s killing our imaginations and the rest of what makes us human. That people need AI because they lack the ability to come up with fresh new ideas, or to make connections between them. I’ve seen this in social posts, videos, reels, and comments, not to mention Reddit threads, and in conversation with colleagues and students.

    Now — this isn’t to say that some uses of generative AI aren’t light-touch, or couldn’t just as easily be done with tools or methods that have worked fine for decades. Nor is it to say that generative AI doesn’t have its problems: misinformation/hallucination, data ethics, and environmental impacts.

    But what I would say is that for many people, myself very much included, thinking, connecting, synthesising, imagine — these aren’t the problem. What creatives, knowledge workers, artists often struggle with — not to mention those with different brain wirings for whom the world can be an overwhelming place just as a baseline — is:

    1. stopping or slowing the number of thoughts, ideas, imaginings, such that we can
    2. get them into some kind of order or structure, so we can figure out
    3. what anxieties, issues, and concerns are legitimate or unwarranted, and also
    4. which ideas are worth developing, to then
    5. create strategies to manage or alleviate the anxieties while also
    6. figuring out how to develop and build on the good ideas

    For some, once you reach step f., there’s still the barrier of starting. For those OK with starting, there’s the problem of carrying on, of keeping up momentum, or of completing and delivering/publishing/sharing.

    I’ve found generative AI incredibly helpful for stepping me through one or more of these stages, for body-doubling and helping me stop and celebrate wins, suggesting or triggering moments of rest or recovery, and for helping me consolidate and keep track of progress across multiple tasks, projects, and headspaces — both professionally and personally. Generative AI isn’t necessarily a ‘generator’ for me, but rather a clarifier and companion.

    If you’ve tested or played with genAI and it’s not for you, that’s fine. That’s an informed and logical choice. But if you haven’t tested any tools at all, here’s a low-stakes invitation to do so, with three ways to see how it might help you out.

    You can try these prompts and workflows in ChatGPT, Claude, Copilot, Gemini, or another proprietary model, but note, too, that using genAI doesn’t have to mean selling your soul or your data. Try an offline host like LMStudio or GPT4All, where you can download models to run locally — I’ve added some suggested models to download and run offline. If you’re not confident about your laptop’s capacity to run (or if in trying them things get real sloooooow), you can try many of these independent models via HuggingChat (HuggingFace account required for some features/saved chats).

    These helpers are designed as light-weight executive/creative assistants — not hacks or cheats or shortcuts or slop generators, but rather frames or devices for everyday thinking, planning, feeling. Some effort and input is required from you to make these work: this isn’t about replacing workload, effort, thought, contextualising or imagination, but rather removing blank page terror, or context-switching/decision fatigue.

    If these help, take (and tweak) them. If not, no harm done. Just keep in mind: not everyone begins the day with clarity, capacity, or calm — and sometimes, a glitchy little assistant is just what’s needed to tip the day in our favour.

    PS: If these do help — and even if they didn’t — tell me in the comments. Did you tweak or change? Happy to post more on developing and consolidating these helpers, such as through system prompts. (See also: an earlier post on my old Claude set-up.)

    Helper 1: Daily/Weekly Planner + Reflector

    Prompt:

    Here’s a list of my tasks and appointments for today/this week:
    [PASTE LIST]

    Based on this and knowing I work best in [e.g. mornings / 60-minute blocks / pomodoro technique / after coffee], arrange my day/s into loose work blocks [optional: between my working hours of e.g. 9:30am – 5:30pm].

    Then, at the end of the day/week, I’ll paste in what I completed. When I do that, summarise what was achieved, help plan tomorrow/next week based on unfinished tasks, and give me 2–3 reflection questions or journaling prompts.

    Follow-up (end of day/week):

    Here’s what I completed today/this week:
    [PASTE COMPLETED + UNFINISHED TASKS]

    Please summarise the day/week, help me plan tomorrow/next week, and give me some reflection/journalling prompts.

    Suggested offline models:

    • Mistral-7B Instruct (Q4_K_M GGUF) — low-medium profile model for mid-range laptops; good with planning, lists, and reflection prompts when given clear instructions
    • OpenHermes-2.5 Mistral — stronger reasoning and better output formatting; better at handling multi-step tasks and suggesting reflection angles

    Helper 2: Brain Dump Sorter

    Prompt:

    Here’s a raw brain-dump of my thoughts, ideas, frustrations, and feelings:
    [PASTE DUMP HERE — I suggest dictating into a note to avoid self-editing]

    Please:

    1. Pull out any clear ideas or recurring themes
    2. Organise them into loose categories (e.g. creative ideas, anxieties, to-dos, emotional reflections)
    3. Suggest any small actions or helpful rituals to follow up, especially if anything seems urgent, stuck, or energising.

    Suggested offline models:

    • Nous-Hermes-2 Yi 6B — a mini-model (aka small language model, or at least a LLM that’s smaller-than-most!) that has good abilities in organisation and light sorting-through of emotions, triggers, etc. Good for extracting themes, patterns, and light structuring of chaotic input.
    • MythoMax-L2 13B — Balanced emotional tone, chaos-wrangling, and action-oriented suggestions. Handles fuzzy or frazzled or fragmented brain-dumps well; has a nice, easygoing but also pragmatic and constructive persona.

    Helper 3: Creative Block / Paralysis

    Prompt:

    I’m feeling blocked/stuck. Here’s what’s going on:
    [PASTE THOUGHTS — again, dictation recommended]

    Please:

    • Respond supportively, as if you’re a gentle creative coach or thoughtful friend
    • Offer 2–3 possible reframings or reminders
    • Give me a nudge or ritual to help me shift (e.g. a tiny task, reflection, walk, freewrite, etc.)

    You don’t have to solve everything — just help me move one inch forward or step back/rest meaningfully.

    Suggested offline models:

    • TinyDolphin-2.7B (on GGUF or GPTQ) — one of my favourite mini-models: surprisingly gentle, supportive, and adaptive if well-primed. Not big on poetry or ritual, but friendly and low-resource.
    • Neural Chat 7B (based on Qwen by Alibaba) — fine-tuned for conversation, reflection, introspection; performs well with ‘sounding board’ type prompts, good as a coach or helper, won’t assume immediate action, urgency or priority

  • All the King’s horses

    Seems about right. Generated with Leonardo.Ai, prompts by me.

    I’ve written previously about the apps I use. When it comes to actual productivity methods, though, I’m usually in one of (what I hope are only) two modes: Complicate Mode (CM) or Simplify Mode (SM).

    CM can be fun because it’s not always about a feeling of overwhelm, or over-complicating things. In its healthier form it might be learning about new modes and methods, discovering new ways I could optimise, satiating my manic monkey brain with lots of shiny new tools, and generally wilfully being in the weeds of it all.

    However CM can also really suck, because it absolutely can feel overwhelming, and it can absolutely feel like I’m lost in the weeds, stuck in the mud, too distracted by the new systems and tools and not actually doing anything. CM can also feel like a plateau, like nothing is working, like the wheels are spinning and I don’t know how to get traction again.

    By contrast, SM usually arrives just after one of these stuck-in-the-mud periods, when I’m just tired and over it. I liken it to a certain point on a long flight. I’m a fairly anxious flyer. Never so much that it’s stopped me travelling, but it’s never an A1 top-tier experience for me. However, on a long-haul flight, usually around 3-5 hours in, it feels like I just ‘run out’ of stress. I know this isn’t what’s actually happening, but it seems like I worked myself up too much, and my body just calms itself enough to be resigned to its situation. And then I’m basically just tired and bored for the remainder of the trip.

    So when I’ve had a period of overwhelm, a period of not getting things done, this usually coincides with CM. I say to myself, “If I can just find the right system, tool, method, app, hack, I’ll get out of this rut.” This is bad CM. Not-healthy CM. Once I’m out of that, though (which, for future self-reference, is never as a result of a Shiny New Thing), I’ll usually slide into SM, when I want to ease out of that mode, take care of myself a bit, be realistic, and strip things back to basics. This is usually not just in terms of productivity/work, but usually extends to overall wellbeing, relationships, creativity, lifestyle, fun: all the non-work stuff, basically.

    The first sign I’m heading into SM is that I’ll unsubscribe from a bunch of app subscriptions (and reading/watching subscriptions too), go back through my bank history to make sure I’m not being charged for anything I’m not into or actively using right now, and note down some simple short-term lifestyle goals (e.g. try to get to the gym in the next few days, meditate every other day, go touch grass or look at a body of water once a week etc). In terms of work, it’s equally simple: try to pick a couple of simple tasks to achieve each day (usually not very brain-heavy) and one large task for the next week/fortnight that I spend a little time on each workday as one of those simple smaller tasks. For instance, I might be working on a journal article; so spending a little time on this during SM might not be writing, per se, but maybe consolidating references, or doing a little reading and note-taking for references I already have but haven’t utilised, or even just a spell-check of what I’ve done so far.

    Phase 1 of SM is usually the above, which I tend to do unconsciously after weeks of stressing myself out and running myself ragged and somehow still doing the essentials of life and work, despite shaving hours, if not days, off my life. Basically, Phase 1 of SM constitutes a bunch of exceptionally good and healthy things to do that I probably should do more regularly to cut off stressful times at the pass; thanks self-preservation brain!

    In terms of strictly productivity, though, SM has previously meant chucking it all in and going back to pen and paper, or chucking in pen and paper and going all in on digital tools (or just one digital tool, which has never worked bro so stop trying it). An even worse thing to do is to go all in on a single new productivity system. This usually takes up a whole day (sometimes two) where I could be either doing shit, or trying to spend quality time figuring out more accurately why shit isn’t getting done, or — probably more to the point — putting everything to one side and giving myself an actual break.

    I’ve had one or two moments of utter desperation, when nothing at all seems like it’s working, when I’ve tried CM and SM and every-other-M to no avail; I’ve even tried taking a bit of a break, but needs must when it comes to somehow just pushing on for whatever reason (personal, financial, professional, psychological, etc). In these moments I’ve had to do a pretty serious and comprehensive life audit. Basically, it’s either whatever note-taking app I see first on my phone, or piece of paper (preferably larger than A4/letter and a bunch of textas, or even just whole bunch of post-it’s and a dream. Make a hot beverage or fill up that water bottle, sit down at desk, dining table, lie in bed or on the floor, and go for it.

    Life Audit Part 1: Commitments and needs/wants

    What are your primary commitments? Your main stressors right now? What are your other stressors? Who are you accountable to/for, or responsible for right now? What do you need to be doing (but actually really need, not just think you need) in only the short-term? What do you want to be doing? What are you paying for right now, obviously financially, but what about physically? Psychologically?

    Life Audit Part 2: Sit Rep

    As it stands right now, how are you answering all the questions from Part 1? Are you kinda lying to yourself about what’s most important? How on earth did you get to the place where you think X is more important than Y? What can you remove from this map to simplify things right now? (Don’t actually remove them, just note down somewhere what you could remove.)

    Life Audit Part 3: Tweak and Adjust

    What tools, systems, methods — if any — do you have in place to cope with any of the foregoing? If you have a method/methods, are they really working? What might you tweak/change/add/remove to streamline or improve this system? If you don’t have any systems right now, what simple approach could you try as a light touch in the coming days or weeks? This could be as simple as blocking out your work time and personal time as work time and personal time, and setting a calendar reminder to try and keep to those times. If you struggle to rest or to give time to important people in your life; why? If your audit is richly developed or super-connected around personal development or lifestyle, or around professional commitments, maybe you need to carve out some time (or not even time, just some headspace) to note down how you can reorient yourself.

    The life audit might be refreshing or energising for some folx, and that’s awesome. For me, though, doing this was taxing. Exhausting. Sometimes debilitating. Maybe doing it more regularly would help, but it really surfaced patterns of thinking and behaviour that had cost me greatly in terms of well-being, welfare, health, time, money, and more besides. So take this as a bit of a disclaimer or warning. It might be good to raise this idea with a loved one or health-type person (GP, psych, religious advisor, etc) before attempting.

    Similarly, maybe a bit of a further disclaimer here. I have read a lot about productivity methods, modes, approaches, gurus, culture, media, and more. I think productivity is something of a myth, and it can also be toxic and dangerous. My personal journey in productivity media and culture has been both a professional interest and a personal interest (at times, obsession). My system probably won’t work for you or anyone really. I’ve learned to tweak, to leave to one side, to adjust and change when needed, and to just drop any pretense of being ‘productive’ if it just ain’t happening.

    Productivity and self-optimisation and their attendant culture are by-products of a capitalist system1. When we buy into it — psychologically, professionally, or financially — we propagate and perpetuate that system, with its prejudices, its injustices, its biases, and its genuine harms. We might kid ourselves that it’s just for us, it’s just the tonic we need to get going, to be a better employee, partner, friend, or whatever; but when it all boils down to it, we’re human. We’re animals. We’re fallible. There are no hacks, there are no shortcuts, and honestly, when it boils down to it, you just have to do the work. And that work is often hard and/or boring and/or time-consuming. I am finally acknowledging and owning this for myself after several years of ignorance. It’s the least any of us can do if we care.

    This post is a line in the sand with my personal journey. To end a chapter. Turn a page. To think through what I’ve tried at various times; to try and give little names and labels to approaches and little recovery methods that I think have been most effective, so that I can just pick them up in future as a little package, a little pill to quickly swallow, rather than inefficiently stumbling my way back to the same solutions via Stress Alley and Burnout Junction.

    Moving forward, I also want to linger a little longer in the last couple of paragraphs. But for real this time. It’s easy to say that I believe in slowing down, in valuing life and whatever it brings me, to just spend time: not doing anything necessarily, but certainly not worrying about whether or not I’m being productive or doing the right thing.

    I want to have a simple system that facilitates my being the kind of employee I want to be; the kind of colleague I want to be; the partner I want to be; the immediate family member (e.g. child, parent, grandchild etc) I want to be; the citizen, human I want to be. This isn’t some lofty ambition talking. I’m realistic about how much space in the world I am taking up: it’s both more than I ever have, but also far from as much as those people (you know who I mean). I want time and space to work on being all of these people, while also — hopefully — making some changes to leave things in a slightly better way than I found them.

    How’s that for a system?

    Notes

    1. For an outstanding breakdown of what I mean by this, please read Melissa Gregg’s excellent monograph Counterproductive: Time Management in the Knowledge Economy. ↩︎